I know it's been awhile. Partly cause I don't have internet access at home and they blocked blogger in the office (sucks!). Every time I'm at the Starbucks or any other place with free Wifi, I always forgot to update this blog. Not that there's been anything interesting happened in my life pun.
Life has been pretty stagnant.
I did threw a surprise party for a close friend recently. Been planning for it for about 3 weeks with a bunch of friends. For me it was a satisfying event. It pleases me that she really loves the surprise and more so that she loves the birthday present that we gave her.
At times it did crosses my mind that making my friends happy makes this life worth living. For me I think this is the sole reason why I chose to remain breathing.
But it did sadden me that one close friend of mine wasn't able to join us for the surprise. If she was alive, she would be super excited planning for the surprise together. But I know she was with us in spirit that night.
Today is the 4th month she left us. I still miss her. I still cry at night thinking about her.
I can't help thinking, it should've been me not her.
