At least for now.
Sucks!
If I really have the guts to do it, I would have done it. But for now let me just admit that I am a chicken shit. Yeah yeah maybe I've been thinking about the repercussion of my act and that sort of what has been holding me back. Or maybe I just can't stand the pain. Or maybe I'm just a chicken shit. Plain and simple.
Besides, I don't really give a f**k anymore if my life has been meaningless thus far or trying to find the answers to the questions that I've known the answers to but still in denial. I just don't give a shit anymore!
When I'm ready maybe I can take some pointers from The Bunny Suicides.
I've been keeping to myself a lot these past days. Just don't feel like socialising. I've succeeded in going for a week without switching on my mobiles!! But anyways, just for tonight, I'll make that exception. I've got a Christmas Eve dinner to go to.
During my solitary confinement, I read a lot. I bought books after books. My last trip to the bookstore I bought 2 books and borrowed a book from a friend. Finished 2 books in 3 days. I'm down to my last book. I actually have to ration my reading time just so that I don't finish up the book in one sitting and suffer being bookless during the weekend.
But, curse my eyes, I can't sleep last night. I ended up finishing up the book I was reading.
Damn!!!!
It's either I recycle my current books or buy some new ones for the weekend. So I went to Kino during lunch time searching for the 2 books that is on top of my must-buy list. Both are not available. Shit!!!!
It'll probably going to be a movie marathon weekend or a sleeping marathon. Maybe the latter.
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