It's 1.06 in the morning...

and i can't sleep.

I hate times like this.

cause it makes me think. ponder.

so many things to ponder. some many things to decide. so many things....

if people asked, are you happy with your life?

what would be your answer?

for me, i don't know. i don't think i am.

not that i'm not thankful. i am blessed with great friends.

a job that can pay my bills.

lacking in the significant other department is never an issue. as my friend once said, i'm not even actively searching for that special someone. which is true.

why? i don't know.

i guess i'm quite content with the way things are right now.

somewhere deep inside i have this feeling that i won't live long anyway. so why complicate things, right?

right now, at this very moment. i've got nothing to loose. but what if i'm still here after the due date.

maybe. just maybe. i might take things into my own hands.